感谢多年的美式假笑和美式插科打诨训练，不管心里怎么想，全程咧嘴眯眼大笑金句频出，顺利熬过了 45 分钟

Wish me luck，马上要去吃席了，是一起长大的好朋友兼邻居的孩子一周岁生日。我要穿上最厚的伪装，戴上最厚的脸皮，面对左邻右舍亲朋好友的问候数落和指责，作为一个31岁的未婚未育远离父母在国外打工的不孝loser出席。 I died years ago and this is hell🙂

堂姐真的是…说自己以后要拼命把孩子送出国，自己也想出国，又劝我回国发展…

在美国有一个要好的基友是小学校长，昨天刚刚被迫主动辞职，原因是有一个他自认为可以无话不谈的社工把他说过的不正当的玩笑话列出来发邮件发给了HR和其他学校领导。想来也挺操蛋的，我朋友也是过于信任她结果被背后捅刀子。

现在想来，在上班的地方说一些inappropriate 的话还是得确定在场的所有人都参与，这样人人都有其他人的把柄。我工作的部门十个technicians全部都是二三十岁的男性，聊天的话题真的够辞退每个人几十次了，但是人人有都积极参与，敢告的话就整个部门一起死。

县城无名店卖的杂牌衣服价格之高让我瞳孔地震…

When I told my parents the news about my new job, my 83-year-old grandma happened to be visiting them. She said to me, “I’m still alive. Are you coming home for Chinese New Year next year?” I said yes, but I knew for sure I wouldn’t be able to because of the vacation policies at my new job.

My grandma lives alone, grows her own vegetables, and is still in good health. But nothing is promised for someone her age.

So I booked my flights the next day.

The trip home is always a marathon. Two days, three legs of flights with a total of 19 hours in the air, topped with a 2-hour train ride and a 2-hour bus ride. Transient spaces like airports and train stations leave one feeling detached and liminal, jet lag raises my resting heart rate by 15 beats per minute, and the lack of sleep hits me like a hammer.

But it’s all worth it, because at the end of that long journey, I finally get to see my grandma.

回国就是这样，在外面的时候时不时想着回，而每次回都让我更坚定了留在外面的决心。

Excellent 的空气质量

Meta Muse出奇得好用，成了我继ChatGPT和Claude之外，最常打开的第三个ai app了。

麻了，做了一课多邻国之后。毫不夸张，我点了二十几下才给我再做一课的机会。开宝箱就开了四个，又是让我提醒好友，又是让我把小组件放在桌面，一直点一直点。什么狗屁软件，做完一课之后，屁都没学到，倒是像多动症发作一样疯狂刺激感官。